♥Wednesday, March 31, 2010♥
its been long time i never update my blog .
im now at C.G.H .
waiting for my granny sick !
O.M.Gosh !! teribble ryte . yahh i know .
the past days im been suffering by heart broken
he left me . they left me !
now im all alone . seeing me happy . putting on a smiles but deep inside . im suffering in a dark room where no
one there for me .
he was once in my life making me happy .
putting on a real smile . everyday smiling like now . but now is all a fake smiles .
im felling like wanna cry now but i cant the past is just the past . he left me withh me with nothing
while he's gone withh all the memoriies we had .
at first i thought by accepting his love might stay up till forever but . its just my dreams .
every night i cried . waiting for him to come back . but now . trying hard to forget him .
its not that easy ok !
i just cant stop thinking bout him .
there too much thing we been sharing in that 9 months agohh .
but now . im all alone with no one here .
thank gudness there still friends around me .
they make me smiles but i just cant stopp thinking bout him .
haishh .
man !
is this how the feeling when you are alone ?
single life ?
without guy spending times with you ?
i can make its but not with he's not telling the reason .
falaah , cant you like just tell me why you leave me ?
so that you wont make me suffer like this .
i just cant accept anyone else if you still keeping that reason .
cant you like just tell me ?
why ??!! please .
i got this 3 guys . arnd 3 or 4 like that .
but so far on 2 of them show their sincerness oreadyhh .
but the one im waiting him for him to prove the love . he's just not show any .
no a single .
in fact he ignore me .
im so stress up !
its reallyh making my life worst .
i just have no confidence in myself anymore .
after they left me .
he took everything away and just left like that . and im suffering all alone here .
haishh . i will end this here . i will update soon .
with my stories .
thats all for now . maybe letar i will update some times . huhu ~
till next time
^^v nana your shortstuff ♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 12:56
@ 12:56
♥Wednesday, March 24, 2010♥
in this world without friends your world might not be you shud stay for
but once you have a friend treasure them , i admit there were some sucks
but out of millions friends you have outside there , there still some which is kind hearted like
how i found me true friends here . As for this few , we maybe not close at the start ,
we talk onlyh sometimes , as like we past by say hie and bye ..
as days goes by , we became more closer check out out pictures ^^
HUIJIA * REGINA * FARDIANA
this picture taken on huijia birthday , acuallyh the birthday partyh is not well organise but
end up its great ^^ eventhough the cake is melt and the cake fell out upside down by the birthday girl , hahahaha . that was so damn suprising ! everyone was like "ouh no! , OMG !"
something like that , plus the birthday girl felt bad , cause the cake fell out , but end up the cake is still nice
everyone love it .
this is how the cake looks like before and after
before
nice ryte ?
AFTER !!!!
but i still like the cake ^ hahahahs
okeayhh , now with others ,
MX !!!! wOOOhOOO !! the GIGGLES !!
i just love when she giggles ^^
but she's cute *
i loike !!
weixuan is myh most adorable biscuit ever !
she's one of myh best chinese close friends , plus huijia and mx also laa ,
she's like almost everytime she been there for me , but this few while we like became further apart ,
she's with her studies and im with my stuff , awwh , i miss my biscuit alot !
damn>3 fucking alot siia !
the times when we together , she cry i help , i cried she also been there !
thanks alot biscuit ! i love youu alot !!
here my secondary school friends , let me share with you , my dear miemi first !
miemi is a very sweet and kind person ,
she got alot stories to tell and we love her alot !
now with myh dearlyh aisyahh *(dOra)
aisyahhh ! alot things to tell ,
she's crazyhh just like me
she's cute ^
she's adorable *
she's caring
she's sweet ..
theres alot to say bout her acuallyh but im running out of time ,
its 12 plus now and im not bathe yet ! hehehehe ,
oryte heres a quick story about us , i mean aisyah , miemi and me ~!
we went out last mondayh , we went to grandlink , had fun singing , while singing
the person next door banging the wall plus the sing in a shouting wayh ,
idk how to explain but its reallyh irytating uhhq ..
then after that we went to marina , aisyah was so sweet , i dunt have money , im like bankrupt now after huijia birthday , i swear ! i no money ! not even a note ! syilings left 60cent maybe ?
then aisyah spare me 4bucks ! i was reallyh shy siia but what to do , our stomachs are grouling !
i reallyh touch by both of them , they help me alot man ! when we were in secondary schools, we sit in one place maybe always but slacking like that day . it was reallyh fun ! i swear ! love you babes !
"With every friend I love who has been taken into the brown bosom of the earth a part of me has been buried there; but their contribution to my being of happiness, strength and understanding remains to sustain me in an altered world."
- Helen Keller
- Helen Keller
Labels: "My true close friend is the one who brings out the best in me." thanks for being there for me ♥
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 13:27
@ 13:27
♥Sunday, March 21, 2010♥
isnt that sweet ?
the bURN !! damN ! bUt its still niCe !
THE
NANA'S ^^
its 20march2010
satUrday ,
that day is huijia b'day , and we had some small gathering
at east coast . The Philippinos are also invited
we reallyh had fun yesterday , eventhough i did felt lefted abit but
everything goes ryte in the end ^^
thanks guys for everything . btwn , happyh belated b'day huijia
Labels: huijia b'dayh ^^
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 22:34
@ 22:34
♥Saturday, March 20, 2010♥
im so fucking sad siia , he make like this ,
he never shouted at me , he never act this weird towards me before ..
if i were wrong then , say it ..
you know i love you ryte ?? so dunt ever try to hurt my heart terribblyhh like this ,
iloveyou with all my heart but this what i get , are you reallyh sincere in me ??
are you ?? if you are , you wouldn't do this to me , you wouldnt shouted at me like that ..
aan , iloveyou withh deep sincerelyhh from my heart but end up this what i get ??
is this how you repay my love towards you baebhy ?? how cruel could i be till you do this to me ??
i reallyh heart broken when you done this weird attitude this few days ..
im reallyh hurt .. if you dunt want me anymore just say it , dunt keep me still loving you like i do now ,
don't just say love if you dunt reallyh mean it ..
if you do , prove it to me baebhy , prove it .. i love you bhy but why shud this all happen ??
dunt hurt me by this way please i still love you , dunt ever hurt me when im still loving you truelyhh ,
where goes all the promises that you promise me ??
where goes the sweet words ?
where does that love has gone ? where ??
so this is it , if you still love me , mseg todayh before the clock struck 12
so think as you go ^^♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 00:20
@ 00:20
♥Tuesday, March 16, 2010♥
(sob>3 cant stop blaming myself !!!!) my dad blame me almost on everything when he's mad
i realyyhh felt hurt when he say those kinds of words ..
then he makes me felt like he don't need me ,
im his daughter sheyy , and he sayh thode words like wanna go fight like that
he's reallyh losing my patient just now , but in my head he still my one and onlyhh daddy i have seh
nvm , then back to the basic , naufal and the story , acuallyh its just me
im kinda regret on losing him , miss him oreadyhh ..
two is better then one is that song ~
i found it , and its reallyh meaning full for both of us but too bad he's not mine anymore
i cant live without him acuallyh for now uhhq , but the best way to love a person by letting it go but once if it came bck he is for you , im gonna trust my own words this time ,
i have to let hym go and i do let him go , and im not reallyh happyh without hym
but im happyh for hym because i love hym very muchh , but he's reallyh not the one for me reallyhh that kiss means alot of reason behind it ,
i trying to forget hym but he always came back in my mind , that memories of us will never fade of i promise ~
nana janji naufal nana wont forget youu ! (crying**)♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 01:21
@ 01:21
♥Saturday, March 13, 2010♥
its kind of great to go back to work again ,
but the weird thing is that i got suspended for the next week ?
i fucking freak up lorhh , got suspended from work for nothing ??
cibaii !! i really needs money siia for the next week and the next month ;'((
falaah bbyh birthday coming up !
i still don't know what to buy for my ah bhy dear ;((
then next month , faiz b'dayh ? plus aan baEbhy peyhh b'day ugakk ??
mauu koyakk sakk beg dUit akuhh "_
hOww ?? i still wOndering how seyhh .
bUt the most important gift is my ah bhhy dEar ^^
mampos . hOw ? hOw ? hmmphh ;'((
but the weird thing is that i got suspended for the next week ?
i fucking freak up lorhh , got suspended from work for nothing ??
cibaii !! i really needs money siia for the next week and the next month ;'((
falaah bbyh birthday coming up !
i still don't know what to buy for my ah bhy dear ;((
then next month , faiz b'dayh ? plus aan baEbhy peyhh b'day ugakk ??
mauu koyakk sakk beg dUit akuhh "_
hOww ?? i still wOndering how seyhh .
bUt the most important gift is my ah bhhy dEar ^^
mampos . hOw ? hOw ? hmmphh ;'((
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 19:54
@ 19:54
♥♥
that day is yesterday ,
i know i was wrong but i onlyhh can discribe how hurtful am i when i know that he's going acuallyh
i never wanted him to leave me , because he's always making me smile even though he did make me cry some times ;'((
i misses him a lot already . but he did says if i ever wanted him back he won't stay there and he will come back , but if i ever accept him back him parents gonna be sad because their son don't want to fulfill their wish .
when he's still with me , he thinks more on me others then his parents . i felt bad because he use to say that I'm everything for him , he's family not so important but i'm way more important then his family .
doesn't that hurtful when his family heard it ??
i cant bare to makes someone family upside down because of me i rader sacrifice for someones family then being someone family breaker ;'((
i admit that i still love him but i cant declare it in front of him , i'm sure he will find a perfect girl to suites him like how he suites me in his life .
i promise naufal , i won't forget such a person like you , i swear ^^
you love me , you care about me , you sincere enough with me .
but i have to let you go in order for your family sake .
i'm sorry to make you felt this way but this is for your own good "_♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 10:25
@ 10:25
♥Thursday, March 11, 2010♥
equals to emotional !
yesterday i thought of going out with aan ( acually aan is a guy whom likes me but i just know that he likes me alot but i have to treat hym like a friend of mine ) , at first he say wanna go jurong oh not ?
then i say it's too far for me .. then he say want go city hall oh not , then i say hmmphh see how ,
then he change plan again , let's go potong pasir instead uhhq ..
the i just say ouhh okeayhh meet you there , he promise me about 7 plus he will reach there ,
then end up around 7 plus he still at home and i was at the mrt platform waiting for hym to mseg me and plus i waited for hym about 20minutes plus then i tried calling and calling and calling end u never answer me
then end up i call and msg for the last time .. then his friend answer me and said he's at toilet -.-
(bathing) ??
then i freak outt , i just went out from that mrt platform .
when i was otw to go back home , my dress kept on falling ,
i was fucking shy lorhh .
then naufal mseg me want to meet ahwhile or not .
i and hym officially broke up ready acually but he still wants me back .
but what to do it's hard to accept something which hurt you alot before , eventhough he dunt really mean what he says . i cried alot infront of him yesterday , plus alot very shyful incident happens
ahahahahhaahs ^^ LOL !!
i told myself if i loves someone really deep , the kiss of hys willl make me highh eventhough he never touchh me or he did hug me , that kiss gonna be very high .
but when he did kiss me and i never wants it to happens when the lips touch at me i oready felt eww ,
does that means that im not the one for him ? or shud i say he's not the one for me ?
he's kiss and falaah kiss is way too diff lorhh , falaah kiss makes me wants more but naufal kiss makes me ewwh more and can't bare if it's happen again .
why shud my life stay alot withh guys ? if they want to say tthat im pretty , im neither cute also .
i dunt understand why uhhq . but in my mind in my heart there's always him and you shud know who is him the one that im refering to .
when i came back from meeting naufal , i was webcam with one of my school mate plus msn friend , he is quiet cute uhhq for me uhhq .
then suddenly aan mseg me that they got fight what ever thingyhh . i was so shock siia , then i straight away go under my blanket straight awayh sleep and just ignore bout my lappy and its over charge again siia ;(
im going to be darmn it man !
kept on overcharging . darmn !
okeayh thats all for yesterday .
ilovehym withh all myhh heart . never let it go when he's
reallyh the one you love alot .
when i came back from meeting naufal , i was webcam with one of my school mate plus msn friend , he is quiet cute uhhq for me uhhq .
then suddenly aan mseg me that they got fight what ever thingyhh . i was so shock siia , then i straight away go under my blanket straight awayh sleep and just ignore bout my lappy and its over charge again siia ;(
im going to be darmn it man !
kept on overcharging . darmn !
okeayh thats all for yesterday .
ilovehym withh all myhh heart . never let it go when he's
reallyh the one you love alot .
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 10:40
@ 10:40
♥Tuesday, March 9, 2010♥
me in this fucking room (04-11(tech block)
me at class darmn boredd siia :((
in the class theres people playing phone , play comp , talking ,
and some even prank calling ..
siiak kan ??
ahahaahahs ..
acuallyh i dunt really interested about this subject ..
the lecturer sucks to daa max !!
i hate the lecturers in the room ..
later idk what time going back ..
i hope today no so late uhhq ..
if it's soo , im going to be sleeping half wayhh thruu siia ..
huhu ^^
okeayhh
i will updatee my blog once i reach home ..
okeayhh chiaooZZ !!
me at class darmn boredd siia :((
in the class theres people playing phone , play comp , talking ,
and some even prank calling ..
siiak kan ??
ahahaahahs ..
acuallyh i dunt really interested about this subject ..
the lecturer sucks to daa max !!
i hate the lecturers in the room ..
later idk what time going back ..
i hope today no so late uhhq ..
if it's soo , im going to be sleeping half wayhh thruu siia ..
huhu ^^
okeayhh
i will updatee my blog once i reach home ..
okeayhh chiaooZZ !!
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 14:05
@ 14:05
♥Sunday, March 7, 2010♥
i onlyyhh afford to upload this .. the rest all got problem ..
sorry huijia, sorry mx ..
cant upload laa you guys photos ..
i darm freak out man !!
i will try to upload more soon uhhq or you can go check at facebook ..
i got upload :D
dunno worry i stil love you guys !
take cre :DD
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 22:51
@ 22:51
♥Friday, March 5, 2010♥
today i woke up at 9 ..
i know that i was fucking late , and im going to be late but end up i still
go to school ..
when i was on my way to school i was so fucking restless , i slept at 1plus ..
going to 2 lehh , then non stop waking up before that .. i dunt know why "-
then i tried to chat with naufal but end up i'm veryhh tired ..
but i swear for the past few days i cried alot , that makes me can't sleep properly every
night ..
im stress bout this and that .. especially on thinking about my ownself ..
what's wrong with my self i also dunno ..
im a very change person now ..
im no more minah , no more evil mind , no more on minah , totally !
but i just can't understand why there's still people don't like me ??
am i that evil ?
do i reallyh hurt them alot ??
im very chill now .. im sick and tired on fighting for stupid thing ,
maybe becs of i got tattoo , maybe that's why they still have that thought that im still minahh rep ..
(Urrrgghhh !!!) freaking stress liao leer !
why dunt they understand me ,
some still minahh but she call me minah , but when i say back that she's a minahh too
she's dunt want to admit ..
okeahh i admit i was once minahh , i got do tattoo , i pierce here and there to make myself one of them
but now i've really change , onlyhh certains people would see my changes ..
im freaking sad siia because they hated me for nothing ..
is it because of jealousy ??
but why shud they jealous of me seyhh ??
i got nothing .. im just one humble human that still living in this world ..
i think everything shud takes time .. i wanna thanks my friends for making me smiles ,
~waRney
~aiSyah
~miEmi
they make me smile this few day when im freaking sad .. thanks guys ..
love you aloot :D
i know that i was fucking late , and im going to be late but end up i still
go to school ..
when i was on my way to school i was so fucking restless , i slept at 1plus ..
going to 2 lehh , then non stop waking up before that .. i dunt know why "-
then i tried to chat with naufal but end up i'm veryhh tired ..
but i swear for the past few days i cried alot , that makes me can't sleep properly every
night ..
im stress bout this and that .. especially on thinking about my ownself ..
what's wrong with my self i also dunno ..
im a very change person now ..
im no more minah , no more evil mind , no more on minah , totally !
but i just can't understand why there's still people don't like me ??
am i that evil ?
do i reallyh hurt them alot ??
im very chill now .. im sick and tired on fighting for stupid thing ,
maybe becs of i got tattoo , maybe that's why they still have that thought that im still minahh rep ..
(Urrrgghhh !!!) freaking stress liao leer !
why dunt they understand me ,
some still minahh but she call me minah , but when i say back that she's a minahh too
she's dunt want to admit ..
okeahh i admit i was once minahh , i got do tattoo , i pierce here and there to make myself one of them
but now i've really change , onlyhh certains people would see my changes ..
im freaking sad siia because they hated me for nothing ..
is it because of jealousy ??
but why shud they jealous of me seyhh ??
i got nothing .. im just one humble human that still living in this world ..
i think everything shud takes time .. i wanna thanks my friends for making me smiles ,
~waRney
~aiSyah
~miEmi
they make me smile this few day when im freaking sad .. thanks guys ..
love you aloot :D
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 14:39
@ 14:39
♥♥
skipping class and this is what we do ..
ilovethemalot siia ..
myh sweetiie dora :))
dOra the explOraR !!
my ite life with them without fail i will always laughh and laugh never ending
my smiles is all depends on my days bright or shines ..
rain or shines , you guys will always im my heart ..
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 01:05
@ 01:05
♥Thursday, March 4, 2010♥
im almost done with my blog man !
but when i'm about to finish it all ..
and i got this freaking fluu ..
Sian !!
i hate flus .. hate it ..
haiyahh .. i dunt knoe what to post liaoo ..
hmmphh ..
*this is just a screen test*
huahuahauhauas ..
but when i'm about to finish it all ..
and i got this freaking fluu ..
Sian !!
i hate flus .. hate it ..
haiyahh .. i dunt knoe what to post liaoo ..
hmmphh ..
*this is just a screen test*
huahuahauhauas ..
see how freaking ugly am i when just awake ..
O.M.G !!
the freaking time cannot change !!
urrrghhh stress up !!
♥ Did i ever cross your mind, baby?
@ 10:32
@ 10:32
Kiss Him !